Our ultrasound was yesterday, and the news wasn’t promising. We were at six weeks four days, and our little nugget measured at six weeks one day. Exactly the same as last time. The doctor saw the heartbeat, but wasn’t able to hear it or measure it, and he said the baby was still “too small”. Only last time we did hear the heartbeat. The doctor said that the baby is still within the range of normal, although should be bigger, but last time with the same measurements he was telling us it was fifty-fifty. So what is it, doc?
We left there in tears, feeling so little hope that things will turn out alright. We go back on Sunday for another ultrasound. I’m terrified that the baby will have stopped growing in the meantime, just like before. Déjà vu. How could we have the exact same beginnings, the same data, and expect a different outcome?